Rave Story

My life is very tiring. I have school days 5 days a week, I work in the Psychology Department 3 days week, I work 5 days a week totaling 30-35 hours, and I'm in a full time committed relationship. I average 4-6 hours of sleep a night. Small tasks such as showering or taking care of laundry have to be scheduled into my life. I keep a very professional attitude throughout my day to day life. Heels, sweaters and my "nice" tops.

About a year ago, I got into the rave scene. When I am at raves and other music festivals, I dress differently than I normally do. I act differently, I'm not so uptight, everyone I meet is my friend, everyone has the best outfit. No one is competition like at school, everyone is the same.


Raves have freed me. I can dress anyway I like (as does everyone else), I can be happy without acting happy, I can dance and look like a fool, and for the first time, I feel like I can truly EXPERIENCE music.

I decided to start sharing my outfits and rave stories. While many people who know me back at home probably question or do not approve of this:
1) I do not dress like this normally, these are costumes.
2) Raving is something I do only occasionally. This is the outlet I have chosen to let go of my very busy stressful life.


Electric Daisy Festival (EDC) Las Vegas June 2014This was the first rave I went to. Ryne and I went only one night, the last night. It changed my life. I was already into Electric Dance Music (EDM), but this festival took that love of music into another level. Even when performing or listening to music in the past, I never EXPERIENCED music before that night.

My first rave outfit was kind of thrown together in a day, and I got a lot of compliments on it.

I got the top at a street sale in Santa Cruz for $5. It is a bikini top by Roxy.

http://www.roxy.com/fun-and-flirty-fringe-bandeau-ARJX300146.html?dwvar_ARJX300146_color=bnw0&dwvar_ARJX300146_size=l#cgid=swim_bikini-tops&start=96&sz=48&start=124&hitcount=124

The tutu I got at a store called Ruby Blue in Las Vegas for about $22.

The panties I picked up at Ross.

I wore black and pink tennis shoes and I was ready to go. Pretty inexpensive outfit



Dancing in red light

Electric Sriracha Music Festival San Jose August 2014
This was a very low key music festival. I did not go as all out as I would in a large rave. I wore neon orange running shorts and a neon tank-top from Walmart.

Oh yes and our posse

EDC Puerto Rico February 2015
This was the first rave Ryne and I planned for. We planed this trip 5 months ahead of time, so I had time to get my outfits together.

I wore my same yellow top both nights.
The first night I got a new tutu that was yellow and had night up hearts
http://www.iheartraves.com/led-neon-yellow-tutu

I also got something called fluffies to wear both nights. Mine were frosted yellow.
http://www.iheartraves.com/yellow-frosted-fluffies

I also got a flower crown.
http://www.iheartraves.com/mini-rose-flower-crown

The second night, I wore my multicolored tutu from EDCLV.







I have several more events this year, and more outfits to post soon! Keep you posted.

Mean

I haven't decided if I am going to make this post public or keep it private. I have been planning on making this post for almost three years now.

Shortly after I left my ex, he started a blog and decided to write about me. Every little mean and twisted bit of information he could recall, and twist he made into public knowledge. It was humiliating and it hurt a lot of people, not just myself. That same summer I stumbled across a song that I could easily relate to. It is a song that I took to heart and it remains one of my favorites.

I waited until I was accepted into a university to write this because one of the lyrics states, "Someday, I'll be living in a big old city, and all you're ever gonna be is mean." This is now truth. I'm accepted, and signed up for San Francisco state University, my "big old city." It is my dream come true.


Here is my life, three years ago, sung by Taylor Swift, "Mean"

A Song That Is Often Stuck In Your Head

Another Paramore song makes this list. For about two weeks, this song has been stuck in my head every time I go into work.

A Song That Calms You Down

I'm not sure if this song "calms" me down exactly, but anything old school Paramore is soothing when I am upset. Or when I am not upset. I think this was the first song by them that really launched my interest into this band.

A Song That Reminds You of One/Both of Your Parents

Even though most of my siblings, as well as myself are all adults, my mother had this incessant need to micromanage us. She simply can not leave well enough alone. If two of the siblings are in a conflict, she thinks it is ok for her butt in instead of letting them resolve the conflict for themselves. By butting in, she creates drama that probably did not exist in the first place.
This song is about someone who is creating a problem, creating drama so that they are "needed" tp resolve the problem, that did not really exist in the first place.

A Song That Reminds You of Your Most Recent Ex

My last relationship was one big mess. That whole era in my life was such a joke but besides that point, the music of Pink Floyd is something I associate with that person. We frequently drove to Southern California, and his habit was to play this album as we drove over the Grapevine.

A Song From Your Childhood

Oh this song and movie were among my favorite as a youngster. First of all, who does not like Michael Jackson? Second of all, I was convinced that I would grow up to work with animals (which I accomplished by the age of 20) just like the main character of this movie, Free Willy. It was a very popular movie when I was in elementary school, especially because the following year, my third grade class took a field trip to Marine World in  Vallejo (where I ended up working as an animal trainer).

RIP MJ and Keiko

By the Grace of God

Friday April 12, my family is going to be on Good Day Sacramento, a local Good Morning America style show. My mom has a segment promoting her book and the family was invited to be there in the background or something. I'm actually not sure what it is going to be like but McKenna and I will be vlogging the experience for Kelsey and Ken.

My mom got a call on Friday from the producers of the Jeff Probst Show, remember we filmed for them last August?-> http://purplediego.blogspot.com/2012/08/lights-camera-action.html
My parents are also on the commercial: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KZqYPfUf9rE&list=FLNczIx9tQtfridvt5WfmkRg&index=1

Well they are finally airing our show on August 21. They were asking for updates on the family and mom said she had her book published, Jordan had joined the marines and that McKenna had been in her pageant in January. It really bothered me that she did not include any information regarding the rest of the family because there is a lot of things that the family has done. For example, one of the highlights of my life, besides taking 7 classes, and being first chair clarinet in the MJC day band is being a deacon and an usher at church. I consider those positions to be an honor, and I am referred to as the "Starbucks girl" more often than not.
The other day my mom bought be a beautiful dress, I am in love with it and I can not remember my mom ever buying me a dress like that. She has purchased McKenna more dresses like that than I can count, and I feel like no matter what, my sisters and I are never going to get the same sort of attention that she gets. No matter how my weight fluctuates, or how I do my make up lighter or darker, or even got the blonde highlights she likes, or how many classes I take or how many "A's" I get, or how many theater classes I take I am never going to capture the interest of her. I have only done one audition in LA because of her efforts and my sisters have don't more than I could count and no matter how much I express my interest in that area, I either am not heard or ignored. I had an audition in San Francisco in November of 2011 and she did not allow me to go even though I had told her I would pay for my own gas in advance.
Yes I am 26, but I am living at home and am a part of the family, but I do not often feel like part of the family. Sure I can drive people around and do chores, but that is the extent of my involvement. It would be nice to really feel like part of the family, and I try, but I keep telling myself that I will get used to the empty feeling I have been feeling for years and years on top of years.

Oh well, I have three weeks of classes left and then I have finals and my bustiest semester will be complete. I still have to attend another play in the next two weeks and write my LLT on it for my theatre class. I was hoping to go to a show earlier today with Mom and McKenna but the conversation I had with my mom about attending must have gotten lost in her head because I was not invited, so I am on the verge of a major major freak out about finding another play to go to.

 I have a meeting with my counselor on Monday morning to make sure I can take the two history classes this summer that will give me the option of applying to CSU's. I am currently on a UC path but I really want to see what my options are. I will be transferring as a theatre major, but I am also interested in music and psychology and really want to find what it best for me, through the grace of God.

I'm just super anxious and excited for this summer and fall, and even more so for what will be happening next year when I graduate and transfer.

Fall 2012

This semester has been  really good one. Here is the final result of my programming class:

Absent on 16-Oct
Homework 01 10
Homework 02 9
Homework 03 10
Homework 04 10
Homework O5 10
Homework 06 10
Homework 07 8
Homework 08 8
Homework 09 8
Homework 10 9
Homework 11 10
Homework 12 8
Homework 13 8
Homework 14 4
Homework 15
Lab 01  20
Lab 02  22
Lab 03  20
Lab 04  8
Lab 05  17
Lab 06  16
Lab 07  17
Lab 08  20
Lab 09  20
Lab 10  18
Lab 11  15
Lab 12  5
Lab 13
Lab 14
Test 01  72
Test 02  87
Test 03  80
Test 04
curve   68
Grade   627 pts = 87% = B

I missed the last two lab assignments, but I guess I proved I knew the material on the final. I am pleased with the end result of this class. I really feel like I grasped the material, and I have decided that even though it is not required for my major, I am going to continue my computer programming journey this upcoming semester. Here is my (almost) current schedule:

MCMPSC 213 Programming with Visual Basic
Concepts in programming a computer using the language called Visual BASIC. Emphasis on structured design, graphical user interfacing, and documentation. Includes user screen development, control constructs, array processing, elementary file processing, and database access. Extensive interaction with computers will be expected.

MTHETR 100 Introduction To Theatre Arts
Investigation of the process of the collective are of the theatre, the role of the actor, director, playwright, designer, technician and audience. Survey of the origins of the theatre, its development as an art form, and the social, political and cultural implications of this art form at various points in history.

MTHETR 160 Fundamentals of Acting
Prepares the student to apply basic acting theory to performance. Develops the skills of interpretation of drama through acting. Emphasis on skills for performance: memorization, stage movement, vocal production, and interpretation of text.

MENGL 103 Adv Comp & Critical Thinking
Advanced composition course that focuses on the techniques and principles of argumentation. Examines style, diction, inference, evidence, reasoning, and rhetorical strategies of written argument. 8,000 word writing requirement, at least 6,000 of which must be in essays that have a developed thesis

MPSYCH 103 Introduction to Neuroscience
Introduction to the biological basis of behavior. Emphasis on divisions of the nervous system, neuroanatomy, neurophysiology, psychopharmacology as applied to the understanding of perceptual processes, psychoactive drugs, movement, regulation of hunger and thirst, sexual behavior, sleep, learning and memory, language, emotion, reward and stress, psychopathology. Aproprate for all students interested in the behavioral and biological sciences.


I am also going to take choir and probably band again. This is going to be a busy busy year. I am very much looking forward to it. If I feel like I can not keep up, the first class I am going to drop is the programming class. The others are needed in order for me to graduate and transfer.

Challenges Lead to Change

I started running about a year ago. I needed a challenge in life, and I hated running, always have. So I got McKenna to join a running class with me at MJC last fall and we started running. I discovered that I prefer running with music, so I am going to share a bit of that playlist today. I'll make this into a mini-series of my music.

I like running with upbeat music for the most part, I do not run in time with the music. With nothing else really happening, I can actually listen to the music, instead of having it on for background noise. This list is in no particular order either, I usually hit shuffle anyways.

                                                        If I Had You by Adam Lambert

 I know there are a lot of people who for one reason or another do not like Adam Lambert, and I am one of those people who do not know what that has to do with his music. If he has good music (or at least catchy), listen to it, I do.

                                                         La La by Ashlee Simpson

This song is actually very...frisky shall we say if you actually sit down and listen to the words. I think that is part of why it is so much fun, it's upbeat, and a little mature if you can unwind the innuendos. 

                             The Unknown by Athlete from the Soul Surfer soundtrack

Perfect workout music, upbeat, inspirational, full of evergy.

                                                           Headset by Avril Lavigne

This song is an in-your-face inspirational revenge song. It is a I'm-tired-of-this-small-town-stuff-I'm-taking-off sort of song.

                                                   Set The World on Fire by Britt Nicole

Another inspirational song. I'm not much into Christian music, but I relally like this song. There is no 'Hallelujah'  or 'Holly Jesus' stuff in this song. It is a song that reaches out, and asks for opportunity.

                                                                In the Dark by Dev

This song is interesting because I really like the saxophone part. It is just an upbeat song to listen to while running, though it does have adult content.

                                                     Tonight Tonight by Hot Chelle Rae

An upbeat song. I like it because it mentions partying at the Hollywood sign =) It has a few funny scenarios too.

                                     On the Floor by Jennifer Lopez Featuring Pitbull

I don't usually go out of my way to listen to J-Lo, but this song really is an interesting song. It is a dance song with a few slow parts, and a rap part.

This mini-series will probably come together in a more organized fashion down the road. I wanted to start talking about music somehow and I'm sure with some practice, my writing skills will improve. I got over the biggest hurdle, getting started.

Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play

1) Auntie's Municipal Court, by The Monkees. From The Monkees Anthology.
2) Forgiveness And Love, by Miley Cyrus. From Can't Be Tamed.
3) Hardwood Floor, by The Doors. From Full Circle.
4) The Trial/The Unbirthday Song (Reprise) /Rule 42/Off With Her Head,From Alice In Wonderland.
5) Upside Down, by The A-Teens. From Teen Spirit: New Version.
6) Oceano, by Josh Groban. From Closer.
7) Lines In The Sand, by Dream Theater. From Falling Into Infinity.
8) Jumping in Gomorrah, by XTC. From Go 2.
9) I'm Slowly Turning Into You, by The White Stripes. From Icky Thump.
10) Walking Down Your Street by The Bangles. From The Bangles - Greatest Hits.

Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad

Happy: Party In The USA by Miley Cyrus, Shout It by Mitchel Musso, The Violet Hour by Sea Wolf, Starstruck by Lady Gaga.

Sad: Keep Holding On by Avril Lavigne, 10,000 Miles by Mary Chapin Carpenter, Come What Mey by Ewan McGregor and Nicole Kidman, Landslide by The Dixie Chicks,

Bored: Supermassive Black Hole by Muse, Take On Me by A-Ha, You're The Best by Joe 'Bean' Eposito.

Hyped: Party In The USA by Miley Cyrus, Walk Like an Egyptian by The Bangles, Time Bomb by Rancid, We Rock by the cast of Camp Rock.

Mad: I Don't Give by Avril Lavigne, Kicking And Screaming by Ashlee Simpson/Miley Cyrus, Remember December by Demi Lovato.

I think I have a pretty complicated life. Not really on the outside. My life seems pretty easy: I go to school, I go to church, I help out with the marching band and that pretty sums up what I am up to these days. It is not a lot, and I sometimes wish it were different, but I think this is what is right for the time. My life becomes more complicated when I look at who mu life involves. Breaking that down, I have family, friends and acquaintances. Those all can be broken down further among age, location, time I knew these people, religion status, sexual status, and politics. When I want to make an update on my facebook or twitter, I have to be careful as to not offend any one of these sub-categories. I do not feel like I have the freedom to truly express my thoughts and feelings regarding what I truly believe because I am going to offend *someone* out there and get my hand slapped. I hate that I live in a world where I feel so trapped in my own mind. I do not feel like I can have a discussion with another person about how I feel. I also do not feel like I believe in the right thing. I really need someone to tell me that I am right.

I think working with the Modesto High band has helped me expand as a person. I have been defining some skills that I'm sure I have always possessed. I would have benefited greatly at Disney had I known I held this kind of power within myself. I had to fight with every single manager to gain ground in anything I felt strongly about. I sometimes think about what would happen if I had stronger rebuttals (as I think I do now) or if I had backed off completely. If I approached every person without fear and with an open heart, how would things be?

Working with the band, I am learning a balance of being a leader and a friend. How to develop and live off of that fine line between using an example

Hello Dolly and Train Wrecks

Things are better for the moment being. Carol Channing was amazing last night. For those who don't know, Carol Channing sang "Hello Dolly" with Mo Band last night. She is such a doll, she is so cute. After the concert, Mickalyn and I went out with about 10 other people to Lyons. And after we were done, we realized Carol was in there too! She came over and we talked for a few minutes. She is just so sweet, I can't get over her. So I guess I can die now, I've performed and eaten in the same restaurant as Carol Channing.
Then on the way home, Mickalyn and I couldn't go home. We live on the West-Side, meaning "on the other side of the tracks." But I'm guessing there was some sort of train wreck and all of the streets in downtown were closed, and we didn't know if we could go home. I mean it was hecka late and everything too. But we finally found a way through and got home all safe and sound.
Hey guess what? This is the first entry I'm making from my laptop. Um..I was going to say something else too, but I can't remember it...hum. Ok, c ya all. luv ya, you've been a wonderful audience.

Currently Watching Shallow Hal By Gwyneth Paltrow, Jack Black see related

Inside Jokes

 K, So got back from Mexico last night.
Got there later than usual, like 9:30
. We had a frigging small group, so everyone got like a whole bunk bed to themselves.
As usual, church was fun and I followed more of the words from the songs and claped the whole time, as did everyone else, except I think the Rancho people are used to it. So after that it was of course beach day. So we were blasting Veggie Tales' "The Dance of the Cucumber" which is in spanish and is the most random thing ever. I'll print out the lyrics later. Went rock jumping, but we only went half way to the end of the beach.  No, didn't find any crabs to "eat for a dollar" but found a dead....something and saw sealions...and yeah.
Monday, pulled up a fence and were trying to dig out the posts. They were embedded in 3 feet of cement and we drilled and poked and splintered for hours. Didn't come up with much in the end. But we all got cancer and died anyway. (inside joke)
Tuesday was a day off. In the morning, went to Ensanda and I hot my hair done it totally rocks and I wish it would last longer. Then in the afternoon, we went to a new beach in Ensanada which was just so beautiful and there were people doing horseback riding and I would have except I was using my money this time. Yeah, I paid for my whole trip and it wasn't cheep either. So didn't follow through with that plan.
Wednesday, painted in the morning and did VBS in the afternoon. Painted classrooms and did Daniel and the lions den again. and made froot loop necklaces.
thursday, did flashing. No on the roof. No wait, no nm. K, lets just say it was roofing the barn. then did VBS again, and make lion masks for the craft.
Friday, did sewing again and I decited I really don't like it too much, but don't mind doing it if that maked any sense.
Inside jokes for the week
"Squirl!!!!"
Your a girl, be a man
anything from finding nemo, monty python, victor victoria
i dare you to eat it
I'll give you a dollar
Narrator: "Larry will be performing the traditional Argentinian ballad,
'The Dance of the Cucumber,' in it's original Spanish. Bob the Tomato
will translate."

Larry: "Miren al pepino"
Bob: "Watch the cucumber"

Larry: "miren como se mueve"
Bob: "see how he moves"

Larry: "como un leon"
Bob: "like a lion"

Larry: "tras un raton."
Bob: "chasing a mouse."

Larry: "Miren al pepino"
Bob: "Watch the cucumber"

Larry: "sus suaves movimientos"
Bob: "Oh, how smooth his motion"

Larry: "tal como mantequilla"
Bob: "like butter"

Larry: "en un chango pelon."
Bob: "on a ... bald monkey."

Larry: "Miren al pepino"
Bob: "Look at the cucumber"

Larry: "los vegetales"
Bob: "all the vegetables"

Larry: "envidian a su amigo"
Bob: "envy their friend"

Larry: "como el quieren bialar"
Bob: "wishing to dance as he"

Larry: "Pepino bailarin, pepino bailarin, pepino bailarin"
Bob: "Dancing cucumber, dancing cucumber, dancing cucumber"

Larry: "Baila, baila, ya!"
Bob: "Dance, dance, yeah!"

Larry: "Miren al tomate"
Bob: "Look at the tomato"

Larry: "no es triste?"
Bob: "Isn't it sad?"

Larry: "El no puede bailar."
Bob: "He can't dance."

Larry: "!Pobre tomate!"
Bob: "Poor tomato!"

Larry: "El deberia poder bailar"
Bob: "He wishes he could dance"

Larry: "Como el pepino"
Bob: "like the cucumber"

Larry: "libre y suavemente."
Bob: "free and smooth."

Larry: "Pero el no puede danzar."
Bob: "But he can't ... Okay! Stop the music! What do ya mean I can't
dance? I can dance! What about Uncle Louie's polka party? Didn't you see
me dancing at Uncle Louie's polka party?"

Larry: "No comprendo."

Bob: "No comprendo? I'll show you 'No comprendo'!"

Jr.: "Mom! Dad! Look over here! Get a picture of me next to the cucumber
in authentic Argentinian garb!"

Dad: "Okay, Junior. But we'd better hurry--I think the dwarves have your
mother confused with someone else! Say 'Peas!'"

All: "Peas!"

Larry: "Escuchen el pepino"
Bob: "Listen to the cucumber"

Larry: "oigan su voz fuerte"
Bob: "hear his strong voice"

Larry: "como un leon"
Bob: "like a lion"

Larry: "listo a devorar."
Bob: "about to eat."

Larry: "Escuchen al pepino"
Bob: "Listen to the cucubmer"

Larry: "que dulce as su canto"
Bob: "oh how sweet his voice"

Larry: "la voz de su garganta perece un triar."
Bob: "the breath from his throat is like a chorus of little birdies."

Larry: "Escuchen al pepino"
Bob: "Listen to the cucumber"

Larry: "los vegetales"
Bob: "all the vegetables"

Larry: "envidian a su amigo"
Bob: "envy their friend"

Larry: "como el quieren cantar."
Bob: "wishing to sing as he."

Larry: "Pepino cantador, pepino cantador, pepino cantador"
Bob: "Singing cucumber, singing cucumber, singing cucumber"

Larry: "canta, canta, ya!"
Bob: "sing, sing, yeah!"

Larry: "Escuchen al tomate"
Bob: "Listen to the tomato"

Larry: "?No es triste?"
Bob: "Isn't it sad?"

Larry: "El no puede cantar."
Bob: "He can't sing."

Larry: "Pobre tomate."
Bob: "Poor tomato."

Larry: "El deberia poder cantar"
Bob: "He wishes he could sing"

Larry: "fuerte y ducle como el pepino"
Bob: "strong and sweet like the cucumber"

Larry: "Pero no puede ..."
Bob: "But he can't ..."

Larry: "!Ni siquiera da un silbido!"
Bob: "Can't even ... whistle! All right! That's it Senor! Come over here
and let me sing YOU a song!"

Larry: "Adios, amigos!"

Narrator: "This has been Silly Songs With Larry. Tune in next time to
hear Larry sing ..."

Larry: "Bob is really angry! I hope he doesn't catch me! It's so hard to
run with this sombrero on my head!"

Will it Work?

Whoa, I just submitted an application online. That was weird and easy. K, so I'm guessing it won't work, like everything else I do. Ah, well. I'm done caring and that's about it.
And I don't have the soundtrack, I just found it online, man I wish..........

Currently Playing Harry Potter & The Prisoner of Azkaban By John Williams see related

Music, for thought

I had the weirdest dream I was in Fever and man, don't I wish it came true. I'm not sure if anyone can really understand how hard it was for me to admit I couldn't do it this year. I had such a blast doing it while I could, but there are too many things happening in my life that won't allow me the honors. I have a friend I'm hoping to spend some time with this summer because I'm fearing her life is coming to an end. She lost almost all of her friends these past two years or so and I just want to be there for her while I can. Then I really need to continue finding a job because even though I'm just going to JC, my parents have made it clear that they are mot going to help me financially in any way. So, I  have to pay for that and attempt to get myself my license, because they won't do that either. So I'm mostly going to be on my own this summer with no one to help me. Plus, like I could afford Fever with a list like that on top. I mean, I will probably find time to do other things this summer, like going to Mexico with my church and somethings a little more tame to do.
If I could give up anything to do it, I would, please someone understand this. This is not really my choice, but I have to get my life and together. Music is something I love to do, but I'm not good enough at it. I got myself involved in so many things, hoping it would help me improve in some way. But nothing has come out of it except a damaged friendship and a lost cause. I could never take it up as a career, because my parents and I both know I'm not that good. They could never afford to get me lessons or anything else. They get bugged when I have to ask them for reeds or anything related to that. I mean with the career I'm trying to get myself into, I'm going to be poor as it is cause trainers don't get paid a lot as far as I'm concerned.
Well I could talk about the rain, cause I don't think anyone is reading this anymore. I usually hate the rain because it is so cold and I hate the cold. I'm always cold. Even in the summer I get cold. But the rain last night was so wonderful, it reminded me of the rain in Hawaii. Those times are perhaps the most magical places in the world. The warm feeling of small specks of water dancing to the rhythm of the wind and moving water. I went out to the balcony and just looked up to the wonders of the universe and just dreamed of the times to come, what ever they might bring and where ever they take us. Then, a sense of loneliness swept over me and carried me into the shelters.
So one of the last dreams of mine for completing my high school career was doing Fever and then I had a dream of it happening and so I got all depressed today. But I got an A on my notebook for economics and took my last test in the class. It was slightly less then perfect, but then so am I. I guess I should probably turn in the book, but I still have 15 minutes til the bell rings and then  I just go to math, the class in which I hold the highest grade.
I think one of the scariest thoughts is I might only be taking one music class in college, if even that. I've have dedicated my whole life to it for 8 years and this is coming to an end.
Oh, David isn't coming back to Modesto High this year or next year. He is going onto independent studies so he can concentrate most of his time to his health. His health was so bad this year, his doctors are putting him on to this program. So don't know when you see him again. But I see him every day, so I really am not affected by this.
And if you really care, my dad's dad, my grandfather went into the hospital for the fifth time in a and a half weeks the other day, so if you could keep him in mind, I'm sure many will be thankful for that. My grandma has been so lonely these past few days and weeks, so yeah.
Cheese, I guess this is what I get for losing my diary, you get to read my incredibly boring life and I think like three people even care to begin with so C ya later people. Thanks for reading!

Currently Playing Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets By John Williams, William Ross Fawksi s Reborn see related

Secrets

Man, I need $40 by next Tuesday and I really don't want to tell anyone why yet. In case this doesn't work out or something. Ya know. Oh, well. My problem, not yours.

Currently Playing Pearl Harbor By Hans Zimmer, Tim Pierce, Bruce Fowler, Julia Migenes, Johnny Mori, Heitor Pereira, Martin Tillman, Michael Fisher, Craig Eastman, Hans Zimmer And Then I Kissed Him see related

Calling to me

In case some of you can't tell, I've been insanely homesick. That is for the islands. I've been to Hawaii twice and fell in love. (With the islands). I've been really thinking about transferring to college there in two or so years. It has gotten so bad these past few weeks, I'm even learning Hawaiian in my "free time." I already know some words and phrases, but seldom use them, cause that would just be stupid. But I think it hit the hardest today. I've been doing so much homework, sleeping so little and listening to so much music, keeping minimal contact with even the people in my house. I'm not sure how to describe it. the feeling is so strong now, everything seems temporary. It's not going to last and a change like this is welcome. I'm not really a nice person to be around when change is in the air, but this (I think) is the key. To what? Not even I know.
I bought the shoes I'm going to wear with my dress for graduation. The dress is a light green and white, and the shoes match it perfectly!!!
And this albun is my new favorite, I cant stop listening to it. It really rocks!!!

Currently Playing Lineup By Flight 180 Real Live Gent see related