Yesterday I got my test back after not passing. My next class was swimming and because that is such an independent sport, I tend to let my mind wander. My mind was coming to rash conclusions: so I didn't pass the test even after I spent hours preparing for it. Was I too tired? Am I just not good enough? Should I drop out of this class while I still have time? No I think I can pull it off. I can just study more and do more work. Maybe I can sign up for tutoring and get help there. No I don't have time! Maybe Ben can help me. No he is as busy as I am with his classes. I can do it. I just need to study more. When do I have time? I have to work on my lab notebook today. Ack! I should talk to the teacher there too to finish off getting "late added." Maybe she won't add me. Well she has too. I've done all the work and haven't missed a single class so far. So when am I going to do math? Is it really *that* hard? Maybe I'm just retarded and my parents never told me. Maybe I'm not good enough. How can Ben love me even though I can't get through a simple math class? Maybe he is just waiting for the right time to tell me that I'm not ready to be here or that he is having second thoughts about us? I was an absolute wreck when I got home. To make matters worse I took my hair out of a bun...and it stayed like that. Yes I had a knot that took up my entire head. It took 45 minutes to brush out, I was so close to getting the scissors. So I need to get up the courage and cut off seriously 5 inches.
Things got better. I spent about 2 hours working on my lab notebook and I felt better.
Band last night was so stressful. Last practice before the concert. It should be good though Playing:
Star Spangled Banner
Liberty Bell
La Finta Giardineira
2nd Suite
Passagalia
Beautiful Colorado
Harry Potter
INTERMISSION
Ballet Egyptian
Tribute
Don't Give Up the Ship
Glory of the Yankee Navy
British Eighth
My dad and Jordan are coming down for that and the Miramar Air show. I'm so excited!
I'm thinking of other things to say but this post is really long and I just decided I'm going to go work on chem lab.
I'm out!
My dad and Jordan are coming down for that and the Miramar Air show. I'm so excited!
I'm thinking of other things to say but this post is really long and I just decided I'm going to go work on chem lab.
I'm out!
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